this seems like a good was to get rid of stress

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Got my letter from Ashford carehome, the lucky thing is that the company that owns that care home also has care homes in Birmingham, so if i move there in January I can continue my volunteer experience.

Got a phone call from this woman from an up and coming fashion designer. She said that she is looking for models for the Wedding Exhibition in Wembly thats gona be held this January. She goes that i should post my pics to her email address and she'll let me know if im suitable, so i gotta get my pics developed tommorrow, scan them at uni tommorrow, and then email them to her. Her company doesnt pay her models much, so it will be just to top up my portfolio and to gain catwalk experience. Hopefully it will work out, fingers crossed.

Couldnt get much revision done today, im stressing bout meeting M tommorrow.

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I finally ended things with my bloke today.

I feel like shite.

I need alcohol......

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Hey I feel much better now

And no - it wasnt with the help of alcohol either!

Talked to me "ex" for about an hour on the phone, was a good chat, it kinda cleared things up.

Well today started of with me getting ready to see him, i was about to leave home when i got a text of him saying that he cant meet me. I was kinda building my self up to end things to see him today, i couldnt let things go on any longer, so i just text him how i felt, he called, and i started crying on the phone-how sad! Anyway i cut the conversation short, and he said he'll call later on. When he called later on he said that he still wants us to be friends, he still want to see me as friends, we chatted for a hour, and he wants to call me tommorrow as well. Strange :? , its like hes making more of an effort to spend time on me now that we are just friends than he used to during the last two months of our relationship.

I called my other ex - hes the type of guy who always pays u alot of compliments - just for an ego boost. It worked! . he was comlaining that his new girlfriend doesnt trust him, five minutes later he was suggesting that we hook up! like duh- thats the reason why ur girl doesnt trust you!

What else, Ardeep agreed to link up with me on the 31st of october, so ill have to confirm things with her the day b4 or sumtin. She seemed really keen about the place we are going to go to. Should be a good night.

And oh yeah- Stargazer is sending me his ozimed papers today, so they shoud arrive by saturday, for those of u guy who are interested in me little scam :wink: . U know, they screw us, so we screw them back! :twisted:

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Today I got me AS2 letter- yay! It seems nice just to see my name on a letter with all those med schools on it- kinda confidence boosting. I feel that finally im doing something right. My student loan application got rejected, and putney hospital said that they havent got any volunteer work in the areas that i showed an interest in. Oh well. My Mensa magazine came in, I got a special Mensa wallet sized card as well, so whenever i feel a bit thick, i can look at it to remind myself that i have got loads of potential.

Woke up today and i felt so relieved that i broke it off with M! Im seeing things much more clearly than i did yesterday. He called again tonight, and we just ended up arguing. I think its best if i leave talking to him for the next few weeks.

Oh yeah, one friend that i last talked to over 4 years ago, i logged onto msn and she was there! :shock: . She asked me what i was doing now, i said applying for med school, she goes that ive always had the brains, but not enough motivation to channel it- go for it. Talk about confidence boost, shes one mate who thinks i can get into med school, fingers crossed!

I'll be going to Birmingham tommorrow for diwali, and wont be back until Monday. Happy Diwali to every one out there!

For those people who still want the ozimed stuff, Stargazer sent them off to me by post today, so i should be recieving them on Monday/Tuesday.

Bye folks!

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Well, im finally back from Birmingham, arrived home about an hour ago.

Saturday was good to start off. At work I felt more appreciated than i did last week. Some of the kids bought us teachers some india sweets and other snacks for Diwali, so lunchtime was quite good. However because of me missing my coach to birmingham, and other traffic delays, i ended up in Birmingham at 10.20, much later than the intended 6pm, so i missed the Diwali celebrations

On Sunday I revised most the day. Then me uncle called and said that they want me to come over to their place as they wanted to celebrate Diwali again because i missed out yesterday. After going to his place I popped around to my nephews place- hes only 6 months and hes sooo cute!

Monday i revised the whole day, and today i came back to London.

I recived my ozimed papers today, so im meeting Max on Thursday. I recieved My marked essay from Des O Neil, some science revision note from him as well. Ill let you know how useful i found them once i get through them. I got over 50% in the Des O Niel pronostic test thing, quite good as i took the test over a month ago, before much revision!

My mum and auntie both believe that I can pass my GAMSAT with flying colours and get into med school, its nice knowing that ive got that level of support. Them believing in me is kind off chasing away my doubts about my ability to pass the GAMSAT.

With regards to my ex, on sat he called me several times, and suggested that we get back together! :shock: Well I did think for someone who said that he wanted to marry me he didnt make much of a fuss when i ended things with him. Today over the the phone again he suggested getting back together, but i said that its a bad idea. Some how ill doubt he'll be calling me as often in the future :roll:

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I was supposed to have my hep b vaccination today. when i saw the nurse she said that i needed to show her written evidence that the courses ive applied to need me to be fully vaccinated for hep b before i start the course. she wants me to book another appointment with her for mid december.

I was studying hard for my test tomorrow, kinda hard as I developed the flu today, but sudafed (aka speed ) is helping me get through it. Phoned the lady organising the gig on Friday, she said be there for 10pm and ask for dee. Called Ardeep and she said that she can still make it, we'll probably just stay there for half an hour, one hour max, as ive got work the next day.

Surprisingly my ex called my today, despite me telling him yesterday that we could never get back together again. Either he is genuine about us just being friends, or he still hasnt lost hope of us getting back together. :roll:

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Hiya!

On thursday morning i had a mcq for developmental psychology. Was feeling really ill, but some how i got through it. after the lecture, i treated myself to some YSL mascara. went back home and tried to study, but as i was ill i spent most of my time on the internet.

Friday i spent most of my day sorting out my skin and eyebrows for that thing i wanted to go to. 4pm ardeep txts me and we finalised our plans for that night- she said she was definately coming with me. 6pm i called ardeep, she said she couldnt go out, she cancelled on me at the last moment saying that her mum doesnt want her to do any modelling.

Despite that i still went, as i was on the guest list i walked straight in. i met B, and she took down my contact details. she asked for a photo, but as i didnt have one i had to wait until the photographer arrived. while he was taking pics of me i asked him what my chances were of getting any modelling work through B, and he said that i should nt have a problem. I went there expecting either a yes or no, which wasnt how it turned out. I made it clear to B that I wasnt free until after my GAMSAT, and she said that i should give her a call after my exam. As i didnt get a straight yes or no im kinda confused, but i suppose if they were'nt interested they wouldnt have wasted their photographers time by taking pictures of me. I suppose all i can do now is call them after my GAMSAT.

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Well since i last posted I got some good news and some bad news.

As you know i registered for the three day intensive GAMSAT prep course run by DES O Niel. Well thats been cancelled by them, i found out by e-mail today . As soon as i found out I e-mailed the Gradmed people asking if i can enrol on their intensive prep course instead. I hope im not too late to register with GRADMED. Fingers crossed.

The good news was B responded to my e-mail yesterday, in which i asked her how friday night went. She responded by saying "it was good to meet you", which implies that she was glad to meet me, that i might get some work through her- yay!. I also emailed that photographer, and he replied saying that he will e-mail me the pics he took of me on Friday- another good thing to happen.

Yesterday i felt really ill all day, today i took some Sudafed, had a nice cup of tea, and i feel so much better. I think i might get some revision done today

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Think i should be registered with GRADMED. Got 41% in section 3 in the Ozimed paper last week, two days ago I got 45%. Im doing an ozimed paper per week and two essays for des o niel per week, rest of week im correcting my ozimed mistakes. i think it working, my method of revision- fingures crossed.

yesterday went to lecture, then free haircut at the southbank toni and guy- my best haircut ever! The went to the protest. Did u know that some isreali pilots are refusing to enter the west bank? nice to see that not all Isrealis hate Palestinians and vice versa. Guess there is some hope for the world.

Got a date lined up with this new guy on sat- cant wait!

my broadband was down for a week- now its back. my internet was taken away- i rediscovered my motivation to study- maybe it was fate the the telephone mast fell over!

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Yesterday i went on my first date since my breakup. I had a good time. I want to see him again, but dont wanna get too involved with him until my Gamsat is out of the way. He says thats ok.

Today i went to the Gradmed Maths for Science- it was really helpful. The tutor even said i can email him if i get any maths problems. I reccommend it.

Kingston Hospital people havent posted back to me yet tho, maybe someone mislaid my Crb form? maybe I should phone and check?