Annals of the Budding Medic

**Aitch** · 19-07-2009, 01:06 PM

Jesus, I am hating pharmacology. Not because it is intellectually beyond me, but because it is taking more time than I had thought. A simple ten credit module seems to be Mount Sinai compared to the twenty credit one. The thing with the twenty credit module is, that it is mainly rote learning...I can learn a handful of essays and know I shall be fine (although one of the exams this year told me otherwise, I only got a friggin 65% DESPITE tons of extra reading, quoting references and even SHOWING them to the lecturers who agreed that it was a "fantastic answer, Aitch!"...meh). I am really looking forward to the computer examination though...I already have a good pass in the module and this simple bit of computer examination can bump the grade up to a high first, inshAllah. If I get a first in my degree, I think it will be my most proudest moment...perhaps more so than getting into Medicine (ok maybe not more, or the same?). This degree has been the hardest thing I have done. Once again, not due to the academic pressures, but due to some serious family/social hardships that I have gone through and still managing to get through University.

Another woe these days seems to be my battle with my weight. I have some serious mental and some serious weight issues. I cannot seem to finish the last leg of my journey in losing a couple of stone. I have mashAllah lost quite a lot, but then its just that last couple. I do not seem to have the will for it! Two months until University starts though, lets see where I get. Challo, at least I am not morbidly obese as was once the case.

Have a few errands to run today; money matters, quick hello to a friend and then I come back to the wonders of drug metabolism! Pharmacology, although an ok subject to study, bores the crap out of me. I like learning about physiology and pathology. Not had much experience with anatomy, but the experience I did have in Leeds Medical DR was horrendous, which I am sure is not because of the subject itself, but the setting and the snipey comments of "actual" first years, and not "doctor wannabe's" (the latter being a reference to ourselves, of course).

I am really looking forward to Aberdeen, everyone and everything seems to be SO friendly!

**Aitch** · 28-08-2009, 02:26 PM

It has been ages since I walked and trawled the pages of NMM. Its been such a busy time and SO MUCH has happened...sister-in-law gave birth to a baby boy! My brother MMS'd me a couple of pictures and that thing looks bored to be out in the world! Exams were over yesterday, so the kid's timing was perfect...and about the exams. The ten credit module was a lot of fun to do in the exam, possibly because it was more intellectually challenging. The double module was full of rote learning and I almost died in that three hour exam...my back killed! But the main point is...

...IT IS OVER!

I remember being in school and A levels and thinking about "graduates". They used to be these ancient beings who showed utmost dedication to Medicine that they would rather be the dinasaurs of the class. And holy crap, I am one of them! But it has been worth it. Had I got into Medicine the first time around I would have been at Leeds and boy am I glad that did NOT happen. Aberdeen seems so perfect and I am already meeting great people. Hazrat Ali (ra) said that if you ever look back on your life, you would not want to change anything because its perfect. And it is perfect because of His masterplan! Enough of Godsquadding for this day..my head absolutely HURTS! It has been a week that it just pounds away and almost leaves me disabled. Everyone says they are tension headaches but I am not stressed about anything!

Time for baby shopping!

**Aitch** · 06-09-2009, 04:31 AM

I figured out what those disabling headaches were caused by and boy o boy o boy I am most certainly NOT happy with what I have found out. Caused by another drug. Caused by another MUCH NEEDED drug - and now I am in a dilemma whether as to quit the drug for the sake of the vessels in my head...or carry on taking it and top up with cocodamol overdoses to combat the head throbbing. What I actually end up doing shall be made aware either by a a news peice in BBC bulletin of a young graduate dying with an overdose...OR by my continued blog entries on NMM.

I am kinda wanting to get this dumb wait of exam results over with and find out whether I am officially going to Aberdeen Medical School or not. Its such a shame to be on the path where you kinda know you are going there for definite but you still wait on for that final confirmation. And stupid postal strike - WHEN am I going to get my joining pack? I suppose I could ring the Medical School and let them know that I shall pick it up in person within the next week or something. The whole experience is surreal as of now, but sometimes it DOES get hard hitting when I lament over the wait of these results.

I am not sleepy and I need something to entertain me at this time - something that does not require any manual or intellectual effort.

**Aitch** · 08-09-2009, 07:27 PM

It has been a whole freaking year and so much for my "Damnit I have just ONE stone to lose, why am I not being able to do it?!" So, homework for today is to sit down and think about why I am not able to do it, what stops me, and how do I reach my goals. Yes it does seem like a childish thing to do and go and "think" about it, but my dear friends, it is what makes you budge off your butt and get something done. I have come to realise that whenever I am in a transition mode, I kinda reach stalemate and thats it...SO...from tomorrow morning, back to the basics of food packs and four liters of water. I am going to budge this stone and half by my birthday! Which by the way is a month and half away...woohooo!

I have all my tickets etc booked and am now prowling around Freshers Pages on Facebook and making note of all the things that I need to take with me. I never thought that shifting would mean THIS MUCH FRICKING EXPENSE!

**Aitch** · 13-09-2009, 06:35 PM

REALLY pissed off today. I have not minded WILLINGLY slaving away for the last few months and almost no time for myself but the one day when I just needed three hours to myself, I could not have them. Sometimes it just gets to me being desi! Aah well, times gone, my TV show has finished, and I have made it quite known that I am PISSED off - the best I can do is try and calm myself down and watch the missed episodes online (if they are there).

I am also bugged regarding something with moi counterpart - but lets not get to that. Once the ego game starts...it destructs everything!

On the better side of things - results are out tomorrow at 3pm! WOohhooooOoo! Mum was figuring out what I got..."Well, if normally the undergrad sec sends you the emails to tell you to get your results...and this time it was the course director herself...then it figures you at least got in!". I do hope that piece of paper shows me something good! I know I have topped the course again inshAllah, but I found out unofficially. All I am concerned with is, have I got my first? I never thought I would pass out of this degree with such good grades. Maybe a few of my friends have been right...I DO need to begin in believing in my capabilities!

Things are getting better in terms of motivation to lose weight as well. I have lost 9lb and now am only one stone away from my lowest!

**Aitch** · 15-09-2009, 04:22 AM

Its been such a tiresome day...but the wait and fuss has been all worth it. I got a first class honours! I really am happy, but I have not displayed this "freakazoid jumping up and down". I think the last decade of going over getting into Medicine, the highs, the lows....its really made me sit in silence and just appreciate it. I never thought I would do such a difficult course and end up being the only student who gets that 70% plus. Mum is really really happy and dad is sort of happy. Everything today reminded me of what this dumb bitch ex-friend said once...which I still hold to be a little truth of life. If, now, we do something and achieve something good...the only people who will truly and genuinely be happy for us will be our parents. Fair enough the siblings are there too, but they do their own thing and then move on. Susraal kinda does not give a shit unless its the son-in-law as he is usually deemed to be the bread winner. But I felt the words of the stupid cow to be so true today.

Recently some crap has been going on in the family. And if you are a Pakistani, "family" means your uncles, aunties, cousins...the ENTIRE gang. And usually there is one person who I could have guaranteed to be happy for me, bearing in mind things we have gone through. But he was not. And it made me think...You miserable old sod. You are going on about your daughters shitty multiple choice GCSE exam results and telling me that I did "Ok". How about screw you, bitch?

On the upper side of things - I have emailed Aberdeen and inshAllah I shall be giving them a phone call too. Once again...wohoooo!

**Aitch** · 20-09-2009, 12:49 AM

My, my, my...WHAT a busy week this has been! I have been up to Aberdeen to sort out my room in the flat. Got back and then got busy with meeting a friend up in Manchester, today was haircut and shopping day, tomorrow is Eid and Monday is shifting up to Aberdeen day! Hopefully on Tuesday I am wanting to go exploring and go to the city center...visit Blackwells and somehow find my way back to my flat. Should be interesting.

I am sleepy :|