I've been feeling a wee bit shy of late so haven't posted here in a while.
I got an offer for Peninsula, whoop! It's conditional on my CRB checks and occy health form. There's a health centre exactly five and a half minutes walk from where I live so I really should go down tomorrow and get it sorted. But I don't want to go for a check up! Isn't that awful, I want to be a doctor but I don't want to go and see one...
My interview was...an experience. I had it in Exeter. I met Sephie there (another forum member) and we had a good laugh. All the lads and lassies were dressed immaculately in suits. I felt a bit of a gombeen in my jumper but sure it was comfortable and suits just don't suit me.
Three of us were called and we went into a room to fill out our questionnaires. The idea of being judged and my future being decided upon by three strangers was terrifying. My mind froze and for a few minutes I stared at the yellow and black blur in front of me. Thanks to Iceman_Jondoe (absolute legend!) I had prepared detailed answers in advance and learned them off my heart. I scribbled these down quickly and went on to read the scenario. My heart sank when I saw them. They seemed too straight forward. I'd been preparing for something on abortion, blood transfusions, the MMR vaccine and autism myth etc but none of these came up.
A very friendly looking gentleman came in and called me for the interview. I remember he had a bright orange coloured shirt. Kudos to him for that, it was nice! When we got to the room he introduced me to another man and woman who both shook my hand and gave me a friendly greeting. All this caught me completely off my guard. People had said here how the whole process was friendly but I still expected to see stern looking interviewers sitting behind a desk. There was no desk, just clipboards. I slouched into my chair and crossed my legs. A second later I realised what I was doing, jumped up, uncrossed my legs and sat ramrod straight with my hands palms down on my knees. The guy with the orange shirt asked the first question and as I started to answer a burning feeling crept up my face alongside a feeling in my tummy that you get when you have had at least four near black coffees that day and it's coming to the end of a busy twelve hour shift.
I was only semi aware of what I was saying. At the same time I had several thoughts buzzing around my head- 'am I squeaking?', 'am I speaking loud enough?', am I speaking too loud?', 'I wonder which one here is the doctor', 'she looks like a nurse', 'darn I'm scrunching up my hands', 'uh oh he's looking at my hands', 'damnit he's looking again', 'he's going to be wondering why I'm so nervous even though I'm twenty', 'need to look more mature', 'I really like his shirt', 's**t I shouldn't have said that', 'now I look like a twat', 'oh he's laughing, I wonder with me or at me...'.
The laughing came after I had said I was on the JEDI council in response to 'tell us about an achievement you are proud of'. I didn't mean it to sound funny but that's what we called it at school so it came out naturally. At the end of the interview the three interviewers got up to shake my hand and the guy who was looking at my hands laughed again. I walked out convinced I had made a complete mess of it.
Anyway I applied through the CAO for two colleges here and to do the leaving cert again. But I got my offer there at the end of January. I'm very tempted not to do the LC but the study will be good practice. I don't want my brain turning to mush and I think it's a good idea to go over everything again before I start so I don't fell completely lost.
I'm very excited and can't wait to start. I really want to have an assignment due or to have to pull an all nighter because I have an important exam the next day.
I've made a very nice ice-cream. I haven't thought of a good name for it yet so for now I'll call it chocolate toffee apple coconut ice-cream with a dash of cinnamon.
Bed time
