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[Chang]

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!
Ok so that was fun.... its great to see those little letters go whizzing across the screen....... heehee
sorry - got distracted
I thought I’d keep an air of mystery about me and not tell you what my real name is (the mystery thangs meant to make me more attractive right? 8) :roll: )

anyhoo I’m in upper 6th doing A levels chemistry, biology and PE. Ive got the following:
Liverpool – AABb 2004 entry /ABB 2005 entry (1st choice)
Bradford – BBC pharmacy (insurance)
Leeds – BBB neuroscience
Kings –unsuccessful
HYMS – unsuccessful
Aberdeen – I declined the interview cos I don’t want to go there any more

Soz this post is gonna be a bit disjointed hopefully ill get a bit better at it.
As I said im doing A levels which unfortunately seem to take up the majority of my time. Outside school, I do a bit of sport (swimming, kickboxing – when I can face the pain – running etc), ive done bits and bobs of voluntary work, music lessons, projects over the years but much has fallen by the wayside this year.

I guess im not what you would call a naturally intelligent person – not that im thick, its just I have to work for what I want. I suppose this is probably better in the long run – it makes me more determined to get what I want and I feel great when I do achieve something. I know a few people who are sickeningly intelligent, but I know that once im in med school I will find it easier because I know how to work hard – they haven’t ever needed to so they’ll have to learn from scratch (that’s my theory anyway).

Cant think of much else to blog right now – and the odd smelling members of my year are starting to close in with their incessant dungeons + dragons speak.
Must run and hide from the sci-fi clan :shock: ………………………………………….. ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….. ...............................
Blatantly nicked the idea but:
Currently I am
Watching: this moniter go a funny colour (got to get it fixed but it goes such a nice shade of purple)
Eating: monster munch – ooo that pickley goodness!
Listening to: muse – hysteria (v good)

[Anonymous]

howdy-doody peeps
in the school library at the mo feelin way hungry cos ive got no lunch :x never mind. not alots happened in the last few days - waiting for aberdeen to reject me cos i didnt go to the interview. i wish they would just hurry up and do it cos then i could notify ucas of my 1st and insurance choices.

had a driving lesson this morning and nearly ran over numerous small rodents (great fun) but then wacked someones wing mirror (driving instructor not best pleased bout his brand new motor) i guess i can only get better. ive still got to do the theory but i cant find any time to do it.

ive just looked down and realised my tums starting to hang over my jeans slightly - time to hit the gym!! got to get rid of that post christmas blubber. i used to do loads of sport, but i justnever get round to it these days. its not like im doin alot of other stuff, but i just cant find the time.

got to go to work tonight too. hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it. just thought id let you know. im a checkout girl at a supermarket. i dont really mind the actual work its just some of the people who work there as well. some of the customers also p**s me off. they assume that because youwork in a shop you are some sort of lower lifeform who cant tell their arse from their elbow. stupid cos most of the younger people who work their are people like me who are doin A levels or are half way through a dregree. takes the p**s

anyhoo whinge over.........................................
dont know what else to write now (cos my lifes just the height of excitment!!!!!!!)
might go home now and play with my puppy dog 8)

see ya

ps YEY HALF TERM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Chang]

ooops that was me - forgot to log in so came up as guest ops:

[Chang]

hi just a quicky to say Happy Valentines Day my luvlies!!!!!!!!!!

i got a card which i would rather not have done cos it now puts me in a really awkward position with a the guy who sent it. he's really sweet but i am not attracted to him in the slightest.
i dont understand men at all, they are either completely ignoring me or in love with me, i can never just have a male friend.

got to go - missing casualty (not a patch on ER)

currently i am
watching: the afore mentioned casualty
eating:mint imperials
feeling:sharp stabbing pains in my toes as my 9 week old puppy chew on them

[Chang]

:cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:

i need a hug

[Chang]

bit happier today - got to disect a kidney YAY!!!!!!
OK so its not the most difficult thing to do but it keeps me happy.

may as well update you as to whats happened over the last two weeks.

thurs 19th feb - nana had a stroke
fri 20th - she died in hospital at midnight
fri 27th - funeral in edinburgh but couldn't go so looked after the house while parents went. hence i needed a big hug.

so that wasn't a great two weeks but i guess it can get better now.
i feel quite guilty now tho cos i hardly ever saw my nan, and when i saw the last photo taken of her at her 79th birthday party at the day care center she looked more like she was in her late 90s. she looks really happy tho which is nice. she had two strokes in the last three or so years so i guess thats why she looked so old.
i havn't seen her for a good few years cos that side of my family's not close. but i guess she was happy like that cos we used to invite her to stay for christmas and easter etc but she always declined - she just liked her own company i suppose.

soz im waffling but its nice to talk about it - i dont like opening up to people much so i havnt really told anyone about this - i guess cos i cant see you i dont feel as vulnerable as i do when i tell people about myself face to face.

might post again later - thanks for listening

[Chang]

i havent disappeared honest.

got results today from the january modules. not extatic about the results, but they're not horrendous so ill live. when i came out of the exam i thought i had an A in biology and a high B in Chem. i got a mid/low B in biology and a low B in chemistry. it just feels like all the work i do doesn't matter and it all goes to waste. i used to like reading through notes and text books to just learn new stuff but i don't seem to be able to concentrate on anything anymore. its the worst feeling in the world to be in a class with a load of intelligent people who are discussing a topic in chemistry and not have a clue what they're talking about.

somethings come up - will be back later

[Chang]

back again...where was i? oh yeah..
i hate that the teachers and my class mates seem to assume im not going to do well. no thats wrong, they don't think im not going to do well, they just seem to accept it more easily than i do when im disapointed with my results, if that makes any sense. probably doesn't - not much seems to make sense anymore. i just get the impression that none of my teachers actually think i can get into medschool - they haven't actually said it, but they never encourage me like they do with the others that are applying from my school.

im not sleeping well at the moment so maybe thats making my concentration bad. my whole clock seems to be mixed up - i go to bed at about 11 and actually go to sleep about 1 o clock. then i get up at 7 and cnt keep my eyes open in lessons in the mornings. at first it was funny cos it was as if as soon as i went into biology i would almost fall asleep, but now its starting to worry me cos i cant concentrate anymore. im one of those people who really need their sleep. Any advice?

this is starting to become all mixed up so ill stop for a bit..
c ya :wink:

[Chang]

ellooo
ze chang iz back

don't quite know why cos theres not much to talk about right now, im just delaying the process of having to memorise 6 pages of work for a PE presentation. bloody teacher didn't tell me i wasn't allowed ANY notes :x
i dont get the point of trying to do a presentation without notes - god, even Tony Blair uses notes!
i hate presentations :shock: - its just one of those things i cant do.

trying the subliminal learning thing - where ive recorded the talk on tape and play it to myself when i sleep. not sure if its working but it gives you really cool dreams :lol:

heehee i thought there was only one week of school left till easter, but there's two. i am pretty pleased cos i can probably delay the presentation till next monday. not pleased because i cant do sod all for two weeks yet, but you cant have every thing i guess.

hmm.. should really go and finish chemistry work now - thats in for next lesson. (something tells me ive got to organinse my work better)

byesy-bye

[Chang]

hi
did that talk
got 23/30 - could do it again, but its only worth 10% of the total Alevel so i don't think i'll bother. i did really well last year, got 282/300 in the AS so i only need a high C this year for it to work out as an A. just wish the other subjects were the same!

i thought of something i was gonna write about last night but i can't remember it now :roll: my heads still full of the phyiological, psycological and sociological factors which affect the butterfly arm stroke. (don't try saying that after a few drinkies)

i might remember it later

ooh saw that surgery programme last night - well cool!!!!
i cant believe how much it affected me - ive never felt that i wanted something more than that in my life! i've always assumed ill be a GP but surgery seems so much better. don't think i want to do cardiac surgery, maybe opthalmics(sp?) - less people die on you! the heart really interests me but i think that the huge scale of the work would be overwhelming, something nice and delicate like the eye may be more my sort of thing. i got to shadow an opthalmic sugeon last year, and i was amazed at the intracacy of the work, and what they can actually do to the eyes. saying that, that artificial heart pump on that programme yesterday was incredible. hope thay will be able to make the power pack a bit smaller though, cos that big thing must have been a pain to lug around.

maybe ill invent one 8)

maybe not :shock:

bye for now