I wanna have a go.....

**medicwannabe** · 24-12-2003, 03:55 PM

This seems like a good idea, after being a member of this forum (not sure since when) I just noticed it's existence. To be more honest, I'm really really bored at work, its xmas eve, there are three other people in this reading room and most importantly, I have done all my work, tidied the lab and explained what needs to be done whilst I'm not here (on my quest for GAMSAT). Please God, when will the Managing Director come round and tell all the pathetic souls that are still here, to go home????

Just looked at the GAMSAT forum and got annoyed. Silly people trying to scare me by making things much worse than they already are!!! To be fair, had even more of a scare when I looked at my ticket on saturday and saw my picture.. ARGH enough to put u off ur breakfast!

I think my supervisor is really bored too, he's looking through journals on sciencedirect and just showed me some really gruesome pics of some guy with some weird growth from his throat, that just looks like its burst...nice.....

I'm curently reading Northern Lights by Philip Pullman, its really good so far but I cant seem to read it at the moment, must be the cold.

I'm hungry....

**medicwannabe** · 25-12-2003, 10:33 PM

The voices in my head keep telling me to 'EAT EAT EAT'...

My stomach (and trousers) can't take it anymore....and I'm wearing elasticated jogging pants?!?!

Finished reading Northern Lights, it went too quick, really enjoyed it. Need to get hold of the other two books in the series asap! Have now moved on to 100 shades of white by Preeti Nair, ok so far.

Considering I dont even celebrate xmas, seem to have accumalated a number of gifts....

Think I might go and catch the ending of Stuart Little (God I feel sad - there is nothing else on!).

Maybe eat some more....will start my diet tomorrow........

**medicwannabe** · 26-12-2003, 05:56 PM

Well, so far today, I have:

1. Attempted to watch the coneheads on sky movies and then moaned at my grandparent becoz they wouldnt let me watch it-they would rather watch their stupid indian soap that came on last night (and which they saw then) again. How selfish.
2. Threw a tantrum in the kitchen and made my mother cross (haha-u wouldn't believe I'm 23!!).
3. Tried to wake up my brother by jumping on him - he wasnt impressed as u can imagine.
4. Tried to play with the parrot even though she hates me and only likes the above mentioned annoying little brother (why I ask???). She wont even let me stroke her head, meany.
5. Looked at the next online sale and picked out all the things I'm gonna order when I wake up at 6 tomorrow morning so I can be the first to ring up the order line (haha - as if). Actually, that took a while, seeing as I had to look through all the items to make sure I didnt miss something that I might possibly wear once in a blue moon.
6. Tried on some of my nicer clothes that I havent worn in a while, heart broken when I realised I'm too fat for some of them :cry:
7. Decided to go to the gym.
8. Obviously tomorrow, I cant possibly go to the gym today, I have to clean my room.
9. Washed my hair.
10. Might clean my room now.

**medicwannabe** · 27-12-2003, 11:19 AM

Please God, why did u make me so daft? What am I doing up at 6:15 on a saturday morning? Also, God, can u make the next sale lines become free so I can order my stupid clothes? Thank you.

Feel bloated from all the food I ate at the restaurant last night.....wonder if blokey is awake and would mind if I called him??!?!?! hmmm, I'm sure he wouldn't....

**medicwannabe** · 28-12-2003, 06:04 PM

In a stinking mood.

Everyone making it worse. Why are family so annoying?

Just gonna hide in my room for the rest of my life I think.

**medicwannabe** · 29-12-2003, 04:08 PM

'Rain rain go away, come again another day (like when I have to be at work and we dont have windows so I dont have to seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee)'

Felt better after the moody episode, mum made me something nice for lunch. Watched part of a film on sky movies then decided to go for a walk down to the retail park. Had a glance in Next (full of poo) then bought some stuff from Boots (LEGWAX!!!) and bought three books and some DVDs from Borders (including GREASE!!!! dying to watch it but its gonna be a treat once I have done some proper revision). I also bought a cook book, mum didnt look too impressed.....as if I ever do cooking!

Two of the books I bought were the other two books by Philip Pullman. Read the 2nd one (The subtle knife) last night and then watched The Scorpion King (too predictable). Felt a bit guilty coz had hardly spoken to my bloke but when I rang him, he was in bed (work today-poor bunny). Read a few chapters of the last book (The Amber Spyglass)....wow, he is such a good story teller, I cant stop reading!!! This is not good coz I was planning on doing loads of revision today! But the sooner I read it and get it done with, the sooner I can do more revision?!?! Good logic I reckon.

Rang blokey at work, he sounded quite happy to talk to me (always a good thing).

Think I will just read the rest of the Amber Spyglass today and then start proper revision tomorrow. Will make something nice for dinner but that means I need to go to Tesco's to get spinach (scared to go, what if its as busy as before xmas-Pls help me God).

Oh happy days!

Will it ever stop raining

**medicwannabe** · 30-12-2003, 03:01 PM

At least it has stopped raining. Mate in brum asked if it had been snowing in London, so shouted at her for a while, coz I've told her SO many times I don't live in London but near it. No sign of snow......not sure if thats a good thing or bad....

Felt crap all day yesterday so stayed in bed mostly. On the other hand, I did finish reading The Amber Spyglass so now I can get on with my revision but there still is a couple of books next to my bed that have not been read yet....oops!

Mum wants me to take her shopping but not proper shopping, she wants to go indian food shopping which means LOADS of midget people rushing around trying to buy a load of wilted greens AND mum and grandma spending a million pounds on 50 thousand kilos of chapati flour.... nice....... Oh well, I did promise so got no choice now

Spoke to R last night (my bloke). Asked me a daft question, what I would say if he asked me to marry him? So I said, I would say NO! Dont think he was too impressed but then again, he knows the score! Why does everyone I know seem to have an obsession about marriage, either trying to get ME married or wanting to be married themselves ARGH! Although I said to him, I would probably say yes if he was the same caste as me, again not too impressed.......

Aaahhh, I actually miss work......I think its more a case of missing the people at work and having a laff

Cant be bothered to do anything...........Just told someone I havent bought anything in the sales yet and he called me a feak.....I cant help it if I dont see the point of buying loads of clothes that I dont want just coz they are cheap?!?!?!?!

Think I should wake up my brother, its already 10 and hes not awake...hmmmmmmmmm.....................

**medicwannabe** · 04-01-2004, 04:44 PM

*mwahahahahaha* (evil laugh). I gone mad but thats my secret wepon on doing well in the gamstick.....guess its not very secret now...

Sorry, gonna be normal now (whatever that maybe - I feel like writing an essay about that....). Looks like it has been a few days since I last wrote but mainly I been feeling too guilty to waste time on the pc to do it rather than actually doing any revisin'. Not a lots happened since I last wrote, I've barely left the house. Not even done any proper shopping

Just been looking at people's Bloggs.... My heart goes out to Clarkey (sorry for sounding so cheesy) I know how she feels. My aunt was ill with bowel cancer for a couple of years and we weren't sure she was going to pull through, it was like a living hell.

Feeling sorry for Simran, sounds like shes REALLY REALLY stressed. Don't really understand how she feels, I never do the stress thing re exams but at least shes only got another 5 days to go and it will be all over! Till the next exam!!!

And I'm SOOOO nosey as u can tell, Char's love life sounds really interesting...damn, my love life is so the pits, might as well not have one

Anyways, I think I babbled on enough now. Time to do another practise paper...

Good luck with gamsat revision everyone, even if ur getting gamsick of it all like ME!

Oh and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Lets hope we ALL get into medical school asap and become the best doctors in the whole wide world and everyone loves us forever!

xxxx

**medicwannabe** · 06-01-2004, 04:31 PM

Think the stress of the up and coming gamsat is getting to everyone now......

For most people its ok, they have their other choices to reply on as well but for the less fortunate with only a 2.2, this is the only hope!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can be bothered to do much work from now till friday. Done so many practise papers now and getting the same scores for each one, I'm not actually improving so theres no point! Will do the whole practise ACER test tomorrow and spend any other time randomly reading through bio text book and writing an essay if I feel up to it....

Best mate rang yesterday, havent spoken to her in a while so it was nice to hear her voice and the encouragement she gave. Lol, her best one was, 'you're really clever, just remember at alevel how you were the smartest out of all of us, its just unfortunate what happened after' i.e they all got into med school and I didnt. Sometimes I wonder why we bother. The medical schools can make OR break a dream by just one letter. Why do we work so hard and still end up nowhere...ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .

I'm actually missing work. Was considering going in. Maybe chucking some chemicals around the lab might help me but knowing my luck, I'll get stuck with making up 50 million NMR samples :shock: I need some intelligent and stimulating conversation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not saying the people at work are a load of intellectuals, quite far from it. God knows how many conversations I've had to sit through with my male collegues with stuff like 'Beyonce's arse' . Next week I'll be complaining about having to go to work....never win!

I've realised relationships are pointless....they trick you into thinking everything is lovely and so on but in fact its all going down the drain and u dont even realise! The worse thing is having to let someone go and u cant, not because u love them so much but because the thought of them not being around is scarey.

Anyway, I'm not entirely sure where all these depressive thoughts came from, its not really me.

So, only 4 days to go and the gamstress will all be over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Until next year of course.... :roll:

Anyone taking the dreaded exam, good luck and most importantly remember, that LOADS of people havent even glanced at a practise paper yet so you're already doing better than them

Well I'm trying to cheer you up!! (and myself)

xxxx

**medicwannabe** · 07-01-2004, 11:00 PM

Well.......after quite a faffy day yesterday (read some B1), I still woke up feeling pants this morning..heck I'm losing sleep over this exam!!!!

Did the acer practise test today with proper timings. Got 70% for section I and 73% for section III, made a few silly mistakes here and there which was a tad annoying. I was quite happy with my essay on porn!!! Would have prefered higher scores but I guess at least I'm getting over the cut off.

Watched the last bit of Ghostbusters at lunch time (watched most yesterday). I love that film...its so 80s!!! "I'm afraid of no gamsat!"

Think I will read some more bio after dinner and tomorrow will probably relax a bit and write a few essays.

I really need to get out more!

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