Countdown to Med School

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Well i really want to be a doctor, and reading some of these blogs which started back in 2003, some have been really interesting. I think i'm pretty interesting because I don't believe in color separation when it comes to laundry.


Here's me in a nut.
Name: Gavin
Age 18 (19 in Sept)
6th year AS repeat student
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2003/2004 for me was full of ups and downs, i had so much more fun in year 13 than my shitty secondary school experience. I had met brilliant friends and had a final career direction - medicine. Everything was rosy . But i wasnt working hard at school and drifted on by... thinking i was the finished article. I bought a car at christmas. I waited until February till i got my test and this happened...


*Cue torn ACL and broken shoulder*

This wreck was a result of me...
1) fluking my driving test, i openly admit i should not be allowed near a road
2) becoming over conifident FOUR days after passing my test
3) 55 mph at a U shaped corner


Anywho, needless to say I spent a while in hospital which didn't help my piss poor attempt at learning anything at AS. I think my unfounded confidence in cramming was from GCSE where i literally crammed a week before the exam and got 4A*4A and a B. To cut an excruciatingly long story short these are the sequences of events that followed up until now.


I got chucked out of my grammar school with a delightful CDDE in my AS >>>>>> adopted the nickname 'dropout' >>>>>> started a new school >>>>>> worked like hell at my new school >>>>>>>>enjoyed an even better social life but recognised the importance of working hard>>>>>> got 5' A's in my Jan AS Modules 2005 >>>>>> laughed at the gimps who fired my outta school >>>>>> thanked my new school for having faith in me >>>>> hopefully on course for 4'As in my AS's (Chem, Bio, Biz, IT).


I am pretty proud of myself for this turnaround especially when so many people doubted me! No better feeling! But the day i get accepted to medical school will be the icing on the cake. Anyway Ill post again tomorrow cause it felt good reminiscing on the past and seeing that it has all turned out well in the end!


P.S. it is 01:15 am and i'm tired but i intend to get up a 6AM tomorrow and study. Did it this morning and it felt great till about 12 midday when i collapsed in my bed from sleep deprevation. Got 5 hours kip and it's probably the reason why i'm up so late now! I'm in that tired state where your eyes stay constantly fixed on random objects cause it's kinda like sleeping. Anyways GTG!

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Well I said in my last entry that I would get up at 6AM and study because it feels good. I intially woke up at somewhere in and around 6AM but was so pissed of by the magpie ritual thing that was going on out side my window i dived back under my bedcovers - pointlessly proving to the evil magpies squaking outside my window that i was not succoming to their wake-up call. Needless to say i got up at 11:46AM. Yet again i am hit with the procrastination bug.

I sortta feel happy because i'm insured on our new car from tomorrow onwards. He is affectionatly called Hasselhoff (not sure why though) It's a decent wee car for £1000. (ill post a pic later when he comes back from being serviced). I also feel happy because, unlike many of the people in my class, i do not have to repeat any of my january modules in these summer tests which takes a load of my mind. This time last year (before i reformed) i had 14 tests, wheras now i only have 6. Although i have less tests to do than most people doing 4 AS's I still think i'm surfing along on that liberty and have a nagging feeling that everyone else is ahead of me in terms of revision as they had will have had more impotus to study than I do. Although it will feel great to come into all my exams (in hasselhoff) an hour later than everyone else repeating!


I keep shifting the goal posts as far as study is concerned. I said on Monday I would study study study all week i havent got round to it yet. So ill start today - hmmmm. Its not that i dont want to study, its just that i have so many other things on my mind - car insurance, paying off holiday (gran canaria - 22 Aug!), joining gym etc. As you can see very important things!

Today, so far, i have hauled myself out of bed at the aforementioned time, threw on my clothes, had a bowl of frosties and sat in my living room with the curtains closed watching big bro live. Me=Sad.

Today (in biology) i'm going to get all that female reproductive system stuff done and start the topic 'immunology and forensics'. If i do that ill be very happy.

Also today (in chemistry) i will get 'petroleum and alkanes' done. I hope im not just procrastinating again and will actually get it done and dusted.

My next post will go something along these lines... 'wow, i got so much study done today that i dont need to revise for the rest of the week because i'm so sorted in all my exams' - hmmmm.

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I am a dick. I said i would study certain topics all day. I didnt put my head near a book all day. Fuk Fuk Fuk. I feel like such a dickhead because not only did i not study a thing with my crucial exams coming up... i wnet out and got shit-faced. I am writing now after paying the fuking taxi man £10 for a five mile taxi journey. I had a good nite i suppose but i really should be more mature and not have went out tonight. The funny thing was, since my last post i kept telling myself i wouldnt study all day and it actually happened... i didnt study. How sad is that... going out and drinking 6 pints of guinness on a night so close to your test you can actually smell the exam paper.

I am quite depressed now. On a night where i realised how many good friends i have (it was my friend conor's 18th b/day) i actually feel depressed. I don't know if it's because all my good friends are going to uni in september or what, but i feel depressed. I'll reason it tomorrow when ive sobered up a bit, but now ill o and make myself another ham and coleslaw sandwich cause the last one i had didnt fill me enough. Oh, i found out that i'm going to freshers week in UCD (University College Dublin) with my good friend Mick. It will be good to see what freshers week is like and how best to approach it when it is my turn next year. I think UCD has freshers week on the 6th of Sept (early) so ill hopefully get to another one in the UK somewhere with one of my other friends.

I am so frickin tired right now, but i really want a ham sandwich. My whole household is sleeping and i dont want to wake them up, but i suppose they have become accustomed to my late night expeditions arond the kitchen (banging doors and whatnot). I have to get up and study tomorrow or else ill probably go to hell. I had good craic with the taxi man and me and my friend mark had an argument about how heavy a peugeot 306 was. I reckoned it was about 3/4 ton and he thought it was 2 ton or some shit like that. I know i'm right - which is quite cool because he claims to be some sort of a car freak. We had this argument all the way out the road and as soon as mark got out the taxi man agreed wit me - wooo! Ha Mark! Anyway i'm blabbering on like a big blabbering walrus and i will retire to my bed promptly - after my ham and coleslaw sandwich.


P.S. i think this is quite a sensible post for being a little on the drunk side. But hecking again in the morning may contridict this - you know how things seem so convincingly convincing and true when you are drunk but when you wake up you are like 'what the fuk was i going on about last nite' LOL!

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Back Again. Have had a turmoil last 2 weeks. Can't remember the exact dates these occurrances occurred but i know that they happened....

As i cannot bullet point for this list from hereafter this random smilie will be adopted by society as the new 'bullet-point' -----> (discard it's previous meaning) (edit: can't include many smilies so this idea has been scrapped)

Crammed for biology AS: Done well - Expect A

Crammed a lot the entire day before: Done well - Expect A

Have been driving a lot lately... forgot how great it is to be mobile once more.

Got a samsung d500 - cool phone but i'm deluding myself because i know i have no chance of paying £30 per month for 12 months!

Seen a really good looking girl that i like. Ive seen here before, but i seen here again last week and i really think she is perfect. In heindsight i was maybe probably definately semi-perverse in the way i stared at her for most of the night but i cudnt help it. She isn't like a tits-out-in-yer-face graduate from the school of bimbo, but she has her own way of being sexy. She really looks like a cross between maggie gyllenhaal and katie holmes. Its that sort of doe-eyed beauty that you feel when you look at maggie/katie holmes. In my experience these are the people who have more substance to their character. Substance est tres important - pour moi. I'm annoyed because however much i want to get to know her i will not. I don't think she has a boyfriend and my friends say i would definately be able to go out with her. But if my intuition is correct, i'd say she is the kind of girl who is quite reserved and this, coupled with my conservativeness, is not exactly a highly combustable reaction. To piss myself off even more and drive myself deeper in to my whiskey bottle (overexaggeration for dramatic effect), I rewatched the classic love story 'Casablanca'. Ingrid Bergman - yes please! I really like it, but then again i am a sentimentalist. I know i should do something about this whole 'crush' situation but my heart is completely in love with this girl - ok, ok a dysphemism i know, but again dramatic effect is very nesessary in thes blogs, aren't we all supposed to make are lives seem more important by amplifying every little thing that happened....?

Like, the 'cat had kittens' could be....... my abyssinian-devon rex feline hath fulminated upon the porticus late yester morn etc etc

^^^^i don't really know why i wrote that! hmmmm^^^^^

Anywho, when all my exams are over ill probably get to see her more often. (note to self: So forget about her until THURSDAY 23rd when all your troubles will disintigrate when you walk into the pub and/or offlicence after your final biz studies exam!)

I got a bit sidetracked there..... where was i...... ah oui......i was listing all the things that happened to me in the last week.

Downloaded Eternal sunshine of a spotless mind and thought it was quite good. The whole story was abit contrived and pretentious but ulimately the eclectic tidbits of the love shared between jim carrey and kate winslet were excellent and very true. Truly great acting! If you've seen the film, the first 20mins or so are excellent, before the whole memoery erasure occurred. I actually felt like Jim Carrey was me, his life was like mine and the part where he meets kate winslet for the first time in the train was highly amusing yet bizarrly accurate of me. I loved when jim carrey (joel) said into himself when he caught kate winslet's stare........'why do i always manage to fall in love with any girl who shows me any sort of attention'.

My final point is that i have fuked up my biz studies exam today and may not get my 4 A's at AS afterall. Now, i know 3A'S and a B is as respectable as a bowl of caviar, but i am a repeat student and need to ensure all these 'repeat' A grades are strapped firmly to my back for the medical hike ahead.... and on that bombshell (alan partridge) i will depart....... like the little lady in the heiniken advert...... FAR-WELL (love that kinky minx ) Slan go foil.

If anyone is actually reading this and gives a shit about me you can email me at gavinleer@gmail.com - (translation: i need friends because i am a loser awkward silence...).......ummm. bye.

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Yeah allo allo again. I have just finished my AS ICT and i really feel that cramming at the last minute works. I really hadnt looked at the ICT syllabus all year and only started at 12 noon the day before the exam. Admittedly what i define as cramming, really is cramming. I studied all through from 11AM till 1:30 AM which was 13 and a half hours of non-intervalled study. I then got up 4 hours later at 5:30 AM and got another 3 hours done. I think this is the best way to learn something, but i can only ge myself in the correct mindset when the exam is looming ominous.

Well in my last entry i mentioned this girl, and i really can't get her out of my head. I am jealous of all my friends who are in relationships and i'm fed up. I know it is because i'm picky. I have never had a girlfriend (longer than 2 weeks), but have had loads of opportunites to, which is a consolation because otherwise i would feel like a right knob. But, as fate would have it, i keep seeing this girl on regular occasions. Its like Mr. Fate IS TEASING ME. But as i described in my last post, she is pretty much perfect - and every day i get the impression she is a very interesting person. But i always manage to give myself a good slap around the face by admitting there is no way she could like me even half as much as i like her. Its not possible. I will see her out this summer and ill do something about it.... maybe.

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Just a quick post this one.

All my exams are finished and i'm waiting on my results. I have been enjoying the summer so far but money is really scarce. I have £5 and 10 euros in my pocket and this is what i need.

Oxegen music festival (10th July): bus = (£15), alcohol for it = (£30), food et al = (£20)
New passport because old one went through washing machine = £75
Lourdes (16th July): Roughly £200 to live on.
Random nights out throughout summer: £200
Holiday to Gran Canaria = £500

As you can see, this is a fukload of money and impossible to aquire.

Oh yeah if anyone has read the previous entries in my blog you will be familiar with a girl who i think is great. Well, she's got a boyfriend.......yaaaay!

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Weel, its been a while since i last posted. I got my 4'As and im now waiting on my application responses. I have applied to EDINBURGH, DUNDEE, LIVERPOOL adn GLASGOW.

I've been acknowledged by all but have so far only got an interview for glasgow on the 30th Jan. I've taken up 2 extra AS's on top of my 4 A-Levels (Maths, Physics) - Cus if i dont get an offer this year ill hopefully apply next year with 6 A's at AS and 4 A's at A2. That wud be cool. If i dont get in anywhre this year ill work as a care assistant for half a year, then go to austrailia or thailand or somewhere. Maybe it wud be a good thing if i get rejected! oj

Probably the most significant part of the last 6 months in my life is my conversion to atheism. I was brought up a irish catholic, but I have adopted a new form of living. The only reason I was a catholic, was due to my paralysing fear to accept the religion or go to hell and burn. Surely this shouldn't be the way to live your life.......i.e. in constant fear of a higher being.... If people ask me why, due to my atheism, I don't go out and murder people and break every rule because I cant go to 'hell', I have an answer.

I believe that the things which make people happy are good things, right? e.g. charity, well-being, love, compassion etc. Not murder, violence and drugs (which are superficial forms of happiness). If I live a life consisting of positive virtues, surely I can't be villified for that?! If I live life true to myself, then whatever form of god there is out there cant condemn me to eternal suffering. I believe in eternal life, but i lean more towards the more materialistic approach of the afterlife. I don't know if I have a soul.....people just assume they do. I do know for a fact that I have a conscience, because I am currently using it. So i believe that is the part of me that will go to an afterlife. Sortta into an eternal consciousness. I also believe that if you lead a good life, when you die, you will live with your conscience eternally in a dream-like state. I believe that materials that you can touch......chairs, clothes, earth etc are superficial non-important objects but that conscience is woven in tho the fabric of space and time - and it is the only thing you will have to live with eternally - so don't pollute your mind, keep it clean because it will be with you for a long time.

Sorry that explanation was really rushed and has absoloutly no structure whatsoever. lol.

I'm not trying to convert anyone, as this theory is personal to me, and I dont expect anyone to adopt it. I think people should be free to come tho their own conclusions about religion cus they have to live it for the rest of their lives....

I have biology and chemistry module 4's coming up on Monday and tues day so ill write back after them

Adios!

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Wow my last post was DEEP.

Well i'm a bit more cheery today as I got an offer for GLASGOW. Yay!
I really like the PBL structure and the city is really cool after being there for interview. I am so happy because eventually my dream of becoming a doctor has just advanced another level. I had that nagging feeling that I wouldnt get an offer for anywhere.... but alas, just get the grades (AAB - any subjects) and im away!

I am doing four A-LEVELS and I only need 3. What do I do? gavinleer@gmail.com I am the only person in my school doing four A-Levels and I really want 4 A's, but its a lot of work. I only want the grades for my own personal achievement, but I might be jeapordising my uni place by getting an ABBB or something. Ah fuk it, i better keep going. Only a few more months and ill hopefully have my A grades. Itll be worth it in years to come. Yeah, ill keep going with all four, because otherwise I would slack off if i was only doing 3.

Now thats sorted Ill tell you what my day was like until now. I completely rennovated our spare room into a study and clothes store pour moi. Its a really cosy little aboad and I keep all my stuff there so my room is a clutter free room where I sleep, read and surf the net. I like distinguishing from work and play.

I have also begun a journal where I document my thoughts (pretty much like this blog) only I tend to focus a lot on planning tasks for the day ahead and reporting on whether or not I fullfilled them e.g. getting up early, going to gym, eating healthily etc etc. It helps.

Valentines day is really shitti when you haven't got a girlfriend. Everybody all lovy dovy around me and i'm sitting writing in a journal about how shit it is. Right now there are 2 people licking the face of each other beside me. Grrrr...... Bah! Valentine Schmalentine!

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Wow my last post was DEEP.

Well i'm a bit more cheery today as I got an offer for GLASGOW. Yay!
I really like the PBL structure and the city is really cool after being there for interview. I am so happy because eventually my dream of becoming a doctor has just advanced another level. I had that nagging feeling that I wouldnt get an offer for anywhere.... but alas, just get the grades (AAB - any subjects) and im away!

I am doing four A-LEVELS and I only need 3. What do I do? gavinleer@gmail.com I am the only person in my school doing four A-Levels and I really want 4 A's, but its a lot of work. I only want the grades for my own personal achievement, but I might be jeapordising my uni place by getting an ABBB or something. Ah fuk it, i better keep going. Only a few more months and ill hopefully have my A grades. Itll be worth it in years to come. Yeah, ill keep going with all four, because otherwise I would slack off if i was only doing 3.

Now thats sorted Ill tell you what my day was like until now. I completely rennovated our spare room into a study and clothes store pour moi. Its a really cosy little aboad and I keep all my stuff there so my room is a clutter free room where I sleep, read and surf the net. I like distinguishing from work and play.

I have also begun a journal where I document my thoughts (pretty much like this blog) only I tend to focus a lot on planning tasks for the day ahead and reporting on whether or not I fullfilled them e.g. getting up early, going to gym, eating healthily etc etc. It helps.

Valentines day is really shitti when you haven't got a girlfriend. Everybody all lovy dovy around me and i'm sitting writing in a journal about how shit it is. Right now there are 2 people licking the face of each other beside me. Grrrr...... Bah! Valentine Schmalentine!

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Ive got my own website! It's full of useless shit all about me! It's like an information toilet...

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Ahh, the wonders of the web.