my very 1st weblog

[a1sha]

i reali dont know wat to write since i have a journal which i write in once evry blue moon (when something interesting happens)

it wud be an understatement to say my life is boring. but it seems like things are gradually getting better.

my life is jst reali full of s**t u know. wow, i used the word life the truth is i dont have 1. being the 1st of 4 doesnt exactly put u in d limelight which is y i am so ecstatic i got an offer at newcastle for medicine. even though it is my only offer, thursday 17th of march still remains the best day of my life.

my situation seemed hopeless rejection w/o intw from nottingham, rejection after interview from qmul and leicester. it didnt seem like my dream of leaving home this year was goin to come true. i had given up and startd lookin 4 stuff 2 do in my gap year.

unlike normal pple my life revolvles around school. i reali hav no life outside school. i stay at home every day of the week except when i do voluntary work. nothing exciting or great ever happens to me. its reali wierd how other pple can comfortably hold a conversion for ages, if it wasnt about school work, a conversion wiv me wudnt last 15 mins.

the more i write, the more pathetic i seem. but that is my life. so may b its not reali worth me startin a weblog cos nothing eva happens. but may be jst may b my life will get better.

its reali depressin especially when evry guy you fall for has sex with you and then breaks up wiv u. its happened 2 times since august last year. well who eva reads this will feel amazing about themselves cos they'll know that somewhere out there is someone far more pathetic than they are

[a1sha]

its great n all getting an offer. but its one thing to get an offfer and another thing to get the grades.

i do alevel human biology, chemistry and maths. i can definately get an A in maths. chemistry with a lot of hard work and determination get a B. but now i'm scared of my h.biology. even though i got an A in AS i'm so scared i'll fail not fail as in a U or an E but fail as in not an A. i'm jst so worried. wat if i dont make it (in tears) i have no back up plan.

[a1sha]

we've changed syllabus to edexcels new maths (ie doin c1-c4 instead of p1-p3). i'm trying to do my maths homework and i cant seem to get the answers right. at the moment i'm in college.

on tues, have a 3.5hrs break between my chem lesson and my h.bio lesson which is so so so long. i cant seem to concentrate on n e thing. h.bio course work will soon be due. all i hav is the data no background info nothing. the stupid course work is on lichens some sort of plant like organism that is affected by pollution. they grow on tree barks and gravestones so i had 2 go 2 d cemetary to count them.

i dont break up in college until thursday so i'm reali tired and angry. i hanvt seen my bf in ages cos he lives in kent. he lived in london on week days to go 2 uni but goes back home 2 kent on weekends. but he's dropped out of uni so he doesnt come 2 london as much as he use to. he was meant to come n c me wen i was on half term but i was reali ill and told him not to come. i miss him so so much.

i spoke 2 him on sunday and he is ok. he's thinkin of goin back 2 uni but he's missd over 7 weeks alredy. i jst hope that wateva decision he makes, he makes the right one. i've still ggot 1 hr til my h.bio lesson. i'll try n do my maths now n i hope i get them right this time.

[a1sha]

h.bio lesson was so cool. we are doin human evolution. so we hav to learn how pple who lived on earth almost 3million years ago- 150,000 years ago lived. today we had to make stone tools by hitting stones with other stones.

i made one which i used to scrape meat of bones. i made a very little knife which was about 1.5 inches an lenght and 0.5 inches in width and it was very thin about 0.1 inches.

i cudnt believe it wen i used the tiny piece of stone(it had extremely sharp edges) to cut the drumstick of a raw chicken. it was so much fun cos i also used it to chop up some leaves. its reali amazing how pple strill survived without technology.

[a1sha]

the most annoying thing happened yesterday. at first my internet was working so i was typing a very very long log. only to finish typing and i culdnt post the log cos my connection had gone wrong. wen i hav time i wud try n retype evrythin i wrote ystday but now i'm too tired jst came back from college we broke up 2day.

[a1sha]

nothing much has happened since i broke up from college. i've stayed @ home all thru. i spent the better part of 2day arranging my room (only bcos i was lookin for my passport) and i'm not still done. i'm tired n i need 2 go 2 bed so d room is in a greater mess than it was b4 i startd cleanin up.

[a1sha]

omg! it reali has bin a while. my dad did something to the computa and evrything on the hard drive erased. so the computa is useless its is so annoyin cos my biology course work is gone. it wasnt a lot jst the introduction and method but i didnt save it on a floppy. the he puts a code on the computa and travels to america. i'm so angry. so how am i writing this log? i am at an internet cafe. i'm goin 2 newcastle 2moro for an open day. am so happy to leave my house. nothing much has happened in d last week. i've jst bin at home watchin tv.

but i bought this very lovely ring from a channel on tv called gems tv (on sky 646) omg it a lovely blue sappire ring it is so lovelu and i got it for jst 52 pounds. if u r interested in jewelery you shld try the channel they hav a lot of nice stuff. its like bidding but rather than the price increasing, the price drops and evry 1 pays the final low price.

[a1sha]

well i'm back to college 2day. i went to newcastle on wed and i had the time of my life. it was so much fun. we were taken to all the bars and clubs in walkin distance of the uni. it was so nice.
wen i first got there in the mornin we were shown the accomodation. which was reali a waste of time. then they gave us a lecture on why to come to newcastle and a full lecture on the shoulder joint to give us an idea of how we will be taught. then we went to the lab, where we saw the shoulder joint of a human and we got to examine this reali cute guy who was pretending to have shoulder pain for the class.
after that i went back to my room (which i was given 4 d nite) and then by 8 we hit the town. it was a lot of fun. all i'm hoping for is to get the grades so i can go there.

[a1sha]

ystday was pretty annoying. i went to college which was ok. my course work is due on fri ( the 1st draft) so i started it again. i've done most of it now, in pen of course. so i got home and started typing it up.aftr i typed for about an hour, i decided to take a break but i did some thing stupid which i cant rememba and lost evrythin i had been typing. i am jst so angry words cannot explain.

[a1sha]

nothing much has happened since then. i think my life is actuali gettin a lot more boring. its wake up ,get dressed, go 2 college, come home, study, make fone calls n sleep. thats how its bin for the past week and it is annoyin. college isnt getting n e better its like the classes neva seem 2 end jst one long boring piece of crap. boy am i tired. exams are pretty close now so i'm tryin 2 study but its not working. it seems that the more i study, the dumber i get. o well i'm in college now. trying 2 finish my course work. so i better go and finish it.