I want to cry
Well it didn't go that bad, just not as good as it should have been.
It could have been my best exam, all the stuff I wanted came up, but I just sort of went blank on stuff that I knew pretty well.
Had to do three essay questions from a choice of 8 in three hours. Choose endotoxins, hypertension drugs and adrenergic agonists and antagonists. But I could have answered a question on NSAIDS and narcotics, I knew it all really well, but by the time I realised I wanted to answer it somehow I had already spent 20 minutes writing about adrenergic drugs, which I knew okay but not fantastic.
Why did I not spend more time reading the question paper
It could have been worse I suppose, but I'm just upset because it could have been better.
I'm right on the borderline between a first and a 2.1 at the moment, and it's little things like this that are going to push me one way or the other.
I'm sort of hoping my dissertation's going to pull my grade up. I wrote a literature-based dissertation about the ethics of pre-implantation genetic diagnosis. It was so interesting, and I think it's pretty good, but then I would say that
Just thought I should mention why I am sitting my final exams in august when every other lucky bugger has graduated. I went into hospital a couple of weeks before the hand in date for coursework and the exams with suspected appendicitis. Turns out it wasn't appendicitis but a massive 10lb cyst attached to the outside of my stomach somewhere (mesenchymal cyst). They're quite rare but not unheard of. Had a four hour operation to get rid of it. When I went into theatre they still thought I had appendicitis, poor surgeon must have had a shock! Had some sort of sensitivity / reaction to the morphine I was on, and my b.p. went really low and my hands and arms started swelling up. God I must have looked attractive! Stayed in five days in the end and could barely walk for a long time after, have a very attractive 6 inch scar down my stomach!
Anyway that is how I am now stuck in August doing my final exams and being very miserable. Oh well, better luck on Tuesday... and Wednesday